celebrity, culture and radical politics in the heart of the american empire

Queer white cisgendered woman. I post a more or less equal mix of radical/leftist politics, disability rights, general US celebrity culture and One Direction stuff here. I tag all my shit so if some but not all of those things interest you I think we can still be cool.

My ask box is always open. I might not always respond to every anon message but I do read everything. Call me out on my shit if I say something shitty. Send hugs or coffee or whatever if you just wanna talk. Big love.


Anonymous asked
Thank you for the links and your answers to my questions about Israel/Palestine... It's all very confusing... However I DO know that Hamas is still firing rockets into Israel, which Israel defends with the iron dome missile defense system... What would you suggest Israel do? I totally agree that what they are currently doing is completely atrocious, but the rockets continue to be aimed at hospitals and airports. This will be my last ask! You just give such informative answers :)

What would you suggest Israel do?

I spent the weekend thinking over my response to this question. The answer is both extremely complex and quite simple. The simple answer is that Israel needs to lift the siege of Gaza, minimum. Lifting the siege also means allowing Gaza to exercise its air, border and water rights, as well as allowing the importation of food without restriction and ALL other supplies necessary for development.

The complex answer goes into the history of European settler colonialism and the specifics of the Israeli apartheid system. I don’t feel capable of giving that answer because I am in a process of learning myself. Here are some resources I think might help you in search for your own answer: 

Anonymous asked
Hi!!! What are your thoughts on Melissa Harris Perry?

She’s cool!! I admit I don’t come across her very much because she’s on MSNBC and I don’t watch very much cable news but I think she produces a lot of important content that needs to be out there. Sometimes leftists, mostly white leftists, like to take the odd pot shot at her for alleged liberal tendencies. Which sure, she’s a political commentator of a corporate cable news network. Also, shut up.

She also faces an enormous amount of backlash from more conservative corners of the media landscape. Trudy from Gradient Lair outlined the various issues surrounding one such incident in a post earlier this year (tw for racial slurs and misogynoir).

A New Chapter. Maybe.


[content warning: suicide ideation, sexual assault, emotional abuse, street harassment, online abuse]

If you’ve read my blog for a while, you know a bit about me and the things I face dealing with a great deal of violence online (some in response to this blog existing; some in response to me existing), from anti-Blackness/racism/sexism etc. and misogynoiristic trolling to the rape threats, death threats, doxxing threats and now even libel. However, what you may not know is this violence is mirrored offline as well, and not solely via microaggressive harassment in public space or the gendered/sexual violence that is street harassment—which I’ve experienced for 23 years as of this month—but in terms of violence because of where I live.

I live in the city I grew up in again, and it is difficult to live in; a place about 25K below average family income in the U.S. But it’s also difficult because I don’t live alone (when I used to pre-recession; alone is the only way I can live, from what I’ve experienced) and I don’t feel safe because of dealing with a great deal of emotional abuse, from having doors purposely left open and me waking up in a panic as a survivor of sexual assault, to people in the home while I am asleep and waking up in a panic again. I wake up in panic perhaps 6 out of 7 days a week and I already have Anxiety and PTSD. And my depression is back. 

I do not get good sleep ever unless physically somewhere else, whether a recent pleasant staycation that I wrote about, to an even more recent emergency survivalcation that I took because that day (this past Wednesday) it was either run or suicide. It was. I deal with invasion of space, lack of privacy and no sense of safety whatsoever. There is no peace. Ever. I then leave this place daily to be street harassed from being demanded to smile despite carrying around all of this emotional weight on my back to being verbally or even physically assaulted and threatened during street harassment. Then I return to this place for more emotional abuse. Or I turn on social media mostly to be abused online (though a few kind people I interact with online as well).

There’s other factors that are too painful to discuss, but basically it’s like domestic violence (though it’s not “intimate partner violence,” it can still be emotional abuse in a non-romantic domestic situation) and I’m at the point where I thought I could wait to save and move but I’m not sure I’ll be alive long enough to do so. Further, because I am not the “rock” right now among some people who know me offline, they are further abusing me because how dare I not be a “mammy” to feel their pain and solve all their problems (which mirrors much of my online experience). I am only entitled to their  ”love” as long as I coddle them and the moment I am not healthy enough to do so, I am immediately and vociferously betrayed. (Please believe that violence as emotional abuse exists outside of romantic or sexual romantic relationships.)

I know safety is mostly an illusion, especially as a Black woman, believe me. But even so, space, privacy, a security system and a slightly better neighborhood would go a long way. I’m not necessarily trying to buy “happiness” (as I wrote about in detail before) but I am trying to move by the time I return from out of state on August 8th. (Another escape trip because I have to try to be somewhere safe and happy for as many days as possible.) I’m not sure I can manage to remain on Earth much past that date in the current residential/city situation that I am in, on top of dealing with online abuse and public harassment including street harassment. I need at least one space to just “be” and a small safer place with alarm would help. A new space, enough $ for mental health care and extended break from social media after the first two happen would help me live.

I was gonna make GoFundMe but as I wrote about before, I don’t want to risk the attention (if you know me, you know I find hypervisibility to be very violent most of the time) and then deal with the threats I dealt with 8 months ago when I raised money for my brother after he was violently attacked. I know so many people think Black people and Black women in particular deserve violence and harm, (I mean, everyone is socialized to think so; it’s something we unlearn) so it doesn’t make sense to make an official fundraiser so that people see an amount collected and then decide I’m not “worth” that amount and then harm me or harm anyone who chooses to donate.

Instead, I will use my PayPal button on my blog and if you’re interested in helping me move, it’s greatly appreciated. Obviously I’ll have to raise a few thousand to add to what I have to move because as a freelancer who isn’t at an abusive but deemed “stable” corporate job anymore, as I was pre-recession before I was laid off, I have to put more money up front and there’s no “lease specials” and such for someone in my situation. I need enough to pay several months up front and some super inexpensive and simple furniture. Hopefully this problem, which yes, is solvable by money (not that all problems are; this one is; safer place to live and new mental health care require money), will be resolved by the date I need it to be.

*DONATE to support my move to safety and health*

I just want to be able to sleep at night. And be away from some abusive people. And have this happen sooner than later. That’s all. Trying to stay alive I guess; last straw I guess. Other than this I feel very…done. I don’t know.

If you are able to help, thank you. Means a lot. It’s really life or death. If it wasn’t, I would not have written this. In fact, I’m always very open on my blog but I still hid most of this particular situation away.

(And if you don’t want to help, don’t believe me, don’t care, or think I deserve harm, that’s fine—it doesn’t surprise me—but please keep that to yourself or keep that on your own blog; thanks. Just asking that any dissent or violence be kept away from this one post.)



honestly my favorite thing ive ever made in photoshop is catloaf


my graphic arts teacher hung it on the wall in the ga computer lab


Anonymous asked



yup this definitely sounds like a shot at zayn


Adding the BI so y’all don’t give them clicks. If they want me to take it down, find me.


This is some very inflammatory bullshit regardless of who they’re implying. But it does seem like a dig at Zayn. How dare they imply he’s some drugged out wannbe terrorist??  This is racism in action, fandom. Now do you have an opinion??  I’m livid.

Anonymous asked
what rose thing is that cara selena post talking about?

Ahh I reblogged that post by accident via 1click while searching for pictures. But when I went to on my blog and delete it was like a ghost post. Anyway, when Cara and Selena came back to the US post-trip a couple days ago. In the pap pictures Selena was carrying a rose and people speculated that Cara had gotten it for her. 

you can't divide by zero




Let’s talk about the ratio of successful surgery fundraisers for trans masculine vs trans feminine people. I personally have seen a handful of successful surgery fundraisers go thru but never even one for any amab person I am aware of. I had a donation post once and the small amount of money it…

300 notes on this post and the situation has not changed. I was recently denied disability on top pf being unable to access obamacare, medical assistance, housing assistance, or any other social service that i desperately need. Let’s talk about the social function of denying care and support systematically to a marginalized group. Let’s talk about how the system is not broken when it is doing exactly what it is designed to do when it excludes bodies like mine. The cumulative weight of being told no a million times on matters of my own bodily integrity and wellbeing. Even if i had insurance i would be fighting every step of the way for inclusive coverage. How is this acceptable. This is a genocide and i won’t stop talking about it until it has ended and there is reparition for me and my sisters.

lets put some money where our mouth is. I need surgery to address the scars, cramping and acute genital discomfort i acquired as an intersex child forced to undergo normalizing procedures the wrong direction. Such injustice so outrage i cant even access basic care that helps w this without coverage (inaccessible) or a bankroll (are u serious i have no income) So if you give a shit and want to help save a poor disabled weirdo queer trans butch out. My paypal is agaglady@gmail.com please share even if you can’t donate. Prove me wrong, give me some hope.


and there goes zayn, slaying all our faves by declaring support for palestine on eid in the most public manner he can